Perjalanan Hidup - A Trainers' Camp Sharing

This song has always been in my mind for a long time. I wanted to share it here on my blog but never had the time to do so. Since TC2008 has initiate it, I guess it time for me to follow up on it as well.



Perjalanan Hidup
Aku yang masih di perjalanan hidup ini
Begitu lama berlegar di persimpangan dunia
Menempuh jarak dan titian
Rimba dan lautan
Mencari sesuatu yang abadi

Aku yang masih di perhentian hidup ini
Begitu jauh menggembara ke serata hidup ini
Mengejar siang dan malam
Surut dan pasang
Mencari sesuatu kebebasan
Mencari sesuatu kedamaian

Di mana berakhirnya
Perjalananku ini
Esok dan lusa bukan miliku
Oh Tuhanku
Lindungilah hambamu yang hina ini
Aku setia hanya padamu
Oh Tuhanku

Ever since I heard this song, trainers' camp is all I can associate with this song. In fact I think it says a lot about what Trainers' camp is all about.

Life is a journey. As a Muslim, we know and firmly believe that this life on Earth is only temporary. There is a more confirmed and final life after death. Most of us are still finding our way in this world.

We never know when the journey will end but we are very sure it will end on day. Are we ready to face that day? Are we confident that when the day comes, we will be able to answer for our deeds. What have we done in this world to say confidently that we have done our jobs as Muslim?

"Mencari sesuatu kebebasan". Personally, I am looking for freedom but not freedom literally but a freedom of mind, a freedom from bad desires, a freedom from worldly problems. Only Allah can give me this freedom.

As most of you would already know, I will be facing the next phase of my life at the end of this month. The feeling is mixed, very mixed. But one thing I really hope and pray is that, dakwah work will continue to flourish during this next phase. I really fear that I will be overly concerned with life challenges during this phase, that I have no time or no opportunity to contribute and fulfil my duty as a Muslim.

To my other half, I really hope you would support me in this journey and together we can discover life that Allah have bestow upon us through this wonderful journey. Patience will be tested and sacrifices have to be made. May Allah gives us strength to face life challenges and may He protect our families from Hellfire.

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

*
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

#
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

repeat *

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

repeat # twice
To a dear sister

You feel like the world is turning on you. You feel that you are all alone. You feel that this life has no more meaning to you. This song is for you. Hang in there Sis. Strengthen your Iman with longer prayers and ask Him for guidance. Allah is always there for you whether you know it or not. Never give up hope. Life is precious, lets treasure it and make the full use of it. We only live once.

From a concerned brother

20 Days Later

Don't worry, it is not another vampire/viral diseases movie. Just the number of days that had pass without an entry. Well, I have been busy, its the beginning of the year so a lot of stuff need to be done. New beginnings, new plans and new responsibilities.

I have been observing a lots lately. A lot things that is happening around me. As usual me being me, it made me reflect and ponder. Shoved me into deep thinking. Whatever it is, I believe, Allah has made plans for me and I hope the plan will be the best for me.

Life will surely be different in two months time. New discoveries will be made, good and bad. I pray and I hope that Allah will give me strength and guide me in this path that I am taking. Hah.... too many on my mind to even pen it down here...

Jom! Brothers! Let go out today!

The One with The Singaporeans

I was boarding a bus last Friday while returning from work. The bus no is 903 to be exact. When the bus came, it was full but all of us at the bus stop were able to board the bus. I had to stand near the entrance of the bus and here was when I realised something unique about Singaporean.

The bus driver was an Indian in his early 40s and then there was an old Chinese man probably in his 60s. And guess what? They were both conversing in Malay! One Chinese, one Indian, talking to each other in Malay. Amazing but true. This is the true nature of Singapore and her people. We are a mixed bunch of people living together in harmony in one small island.

I was smiling to myself all the way to the interchange. At that point, I was also thankful to Allah, the Almighty for letting me live on a country that is able to house different races and languages and religions. Although we have our differences be it in thoughts or actions, we are still able to accept each other and tolerate one another. Yes we dislike whatever you are doing but we are able to take it.

As a Muslim, we must learn that colour doesn't matter. You may be black, yellow or even whites but as long as you have good values and yearn for the goodness for all mankind, you are a friend of us. A friend need not be a Muslim nor must he say that God is One. Singaporeans have agreed to disagree in some matters that is why we are able to live with each other.

However, in some other countries, fights broke out exactly because of this. One say that God is One, the other say that God has a son and they fight with each other because of that. I will not elaborate more on this. Not keen into religious debates. Just hope there will be some peace in this world which is dying rapidly. If everyone continue to fight, there will be no place to live anymore in the future. Let us all go to Space and live.

The One with the First post in 2008

Two Thousand and Eight. 2008. Yes it is 2008. But don't worry, I am not going to talk about reflections and future planning in this post. I am sure all of you who are reading are mature enough to do all that. I just want to give my views about living. Yes living.

Humans have been living in this world since Prophet Adam and since then we have been adapting, using the earth resources for our survival. As time goes by, technology advances and standard of living improves. Now we have LCD HDTVs, superspeed broadband connection not only to the laptops but also to the mobile phones, GPS system and what have you. I couldn't remember those time where there are no mobile phones. Although my generation is the evolving generation. We have no mobile phone to pagers then alphanumeric pagers then the super duper old type phones to modern time fully coloured phones. I still remember those days were we use to have codes for messaging on the alphanumeric pagers. Those days having a pager was the coolest thing. Now it seems unthinkable not to have a mobile phone.

Have we become a materialistic nation? Where we define happiness by looking at how much gadgets and new items we have in our possession? Are working our asses off just to afford a brand new car or the brand new Full-HD LCD TV? Is that really happiness? The objectives in life for most well-minded people is to find happiness but I don't think most of us know what happiness is all about.

For me, happiness is about having the time to spend it with your loved ones. It might sound cliche but I truly believe in it. Loved ones can be my parents, my brothers and sisters in Islam, my future wife, my future kids etc. These are the elements of my happiness. I don't mind having a small house as long as I have these people to spend time with. I once visited a house of my senior and was amazed by it. He is a well respected person and has a probably high ranking job which will most probably associated with a high salary but I was amazed by the way he led his life. His house is simple but yet homely. He doesn't have a big TV, no home theatre system, no fancy curtains or sofa set. Even some of his furniture are giveaways from his families or friends. MasyaAllah I truly admire him. It is not that he can't afford all the luxuries in life but he choose not to. He choose to lead a simple life for himself and his family. Nevertheless though, his house has a lot of books in fact more books than the other furnitures. I think he can open his own library.

I am not saying that it is the correct way to lead a life. I myself sometime have the urge to get my hands on all the latest gadget(I am a man, I like gadgets!) but i think it is all about what you define as your objectives in life. How you define your happiness in life and how you want to allocate your resources. At the end of the day, it is all about Mardhatillah(the pleasure of Allah). So to all those getting married or are married, something for you to think about.